Random Emptying Of My Head

I am tuckered right out.
It will be an early bed time tonight.
I am so grateful for all that life offers.
So much opportunity.
I try to reframe things from "I have to" to "I get to".

I don't know how it is for you but so often for me
I delight, take great comfort, in those daily routines,
the little things.
For slipping my feet into my pink slippers every morning.
For throwing on my caftan and wrapping a blanket around my shoulders.
For my favourite tea mug that fits my hands just right.
I don't know why those things mean so much to me, but they do.
Ordinary moments of ritual that feel like such a huge gift.
Sometimes I look at people out in public
and think about how every one of them
has some such routine every morning.
Open the cupboard, take out the pot,
fill it with water, cook my cereal,
shake on the cinnamon, stir in the margarine,
thoroughly enjoy the eating.
Those kind of things comfort me on a daily basis.

I had the chance this week to take part in a workshop
where one of the facilitators took us through a simple
exercise and then really challenged us
to own our choices and our lives.
He had a great sense of humour and I could tell
that he longed for every person to grasp
how ownership of their lives
was not only possible
but the best choice one could make.
I loved watching him communicate
the truths that he had come to embrace for his own.

I made a decision the first week at my job
to have a fresh flower on my desk every week.
It doesn't have to cost much.
I have this wonderful swan vase
that holds a single flower.
Last week I got a beautiful pink rose,
complete with baby's breath,
for a mere three bucks.

Work is ridiculously busy right now.
I am normally pretty even keel and not much fazes me.
Tonight dearest one commented that
he wasn't used to seeing me be fazed by anything.
I'm not either.
When I get these next few days behind me, Lord willing,
I'll have a whole bunch of new experiences to put in context.
I am grateful for the chance to learn new things.
Lately I feel like I have been showing up for life,
fully engaged.
I am thankful.