Sunday, June 14, 2009

Going Under

We're in big city far from home where I'll have a diagnostic test early tomorrow morning which will hopefully put another piece into the puzzle that is my enlarged heart. It's been a long day of driving with the bonus of seeing one of dearest one's brother, who lives just a few miles from us and who set out on holidays this morning. We ran into each other at lunch time in a city 6 hours down the road. A nice surprise in our day.

The last time I had a diagnostic test that required being put semi under I woke up feeling drunk. I absolutely loved the feeling as if it hadn't been 20 years since I'd experienced such a feeling. This time I advocated for myself and told the cardiologist that I would refuse any medication that would make me feel that way again. She went a little off on me - concerned that I'm an alcoholic - and promptly ordered blood work for my liver. Sigh. My dear cardiologist it's been 21 years since I had a drink. I think my liver has recuperated by now. She also came up with an alternative which has no happy drugs in it. I am grateful.

For all my attempts at surrendering life to God on a daily basis there two times when I really get it that I am not in control of the universe. One of those is when I get put under for medical tests. The other is when I get on an airplane. I'm glad that going under anaesthetic tomorrow will be without the side effect of feeling like I'm flying high.

9 comments:

Lisa said...

will definitely be praying for you tomorrow.

Steve E. said...

Definitely with you on this, Hope. Stay in touch, please.
And PEACE,
S

Lou said...

I am hypersensitive to anesthesia. The few surgeries I've had, I literally staggered around days afterward till it wore off. Every time I try to tell the doctor that they blow me off-*sigh*-

Good luck, I hope you get to the bottom of this soon.

Thirsty Girl said...

Praying for you tonight (my night in Japan) your day.

Steve Bogner said...

Will keep you in my prayers today; hopefully you will some answers and wake-up nice and clear-headed :)

Heidi Renee said...

praying for you even as i type. much love dear friend!

Cat said...

Best of luck to you - and my positive thoughts and prayers are heading your way!

Val said...

Praying for you, friend.

Owen said...

I can't think of anything original to say...I hope you know you are pretty much always in our thoughts here.