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Some days I am fully engaged in my job. Some days not so much. It's been a busy week job wise and I am grateful for that as well. Grateful I am able to work from home in these weird times we are living in. I've gotten a whole lot of stuff done while my body and brain feel otherwise engaged.
The thing is I had therapy a week ago. It was intense. I haven't quite made my way back to normal since. I wasn't scheduled to see my therapist until next Friday but I got in touch this morning to see if I could bump up my appointment and thankfully there were a few earlier openings to choose from. Tuesday it is.
It's hard to know if the funk I am in is from my last session. You know it's bad when your therapist thought you were referring to that rape and you were referring to this other one. It could have been another one or another..... Fucked if I know.
Or am I in a funk from being in isolation so much due to the pandemic? Dearest One and I are going out for groceries and appointments and that's about it. He tries to do most of it so I can stay home as much as possible. And while I am an introvert through and through, I am missing contact with other people. I normally work in an office with six other people. We chat a lot about our lives outside of work. I miss them and I don't. I keep telling them I miss seeing them but I don't miss being at the office.
Any time this week when I got still and tried to attend to that little person inside of me, I got teary.
And I've been fighting all week with that nasty inner voice that tells me that I should be done with this shit at my age.
At any rate it is Friday and I am glad.
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The pandemic has been a distraction for most of us to focus on "the crisis" but now it has gone on so long that we have got to get back to real life. This means we have the same problems as we had pre-pandemic "what a drag". It is truly unsettling but we will adapt to the new normal but it takes time. Be kind to yourself and remember we are all going through the same thing.
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