I recommitted to doing centering prayer and sticking with it through the long haul. Normally I eventually feel too vulnerable and I flee until I try again. Rereading this book helped me see that sticking it out would be the better option. For the past week or so I've spent twenty minutes daily in silence. Much like writing morning pages I can only have the same thoughts go through my head for so long before I am forced to look them square in the face. For a few days now I've had the uncomfortable feeling that something has been off in my attitude in general for a while. Today I was able to attach a word to it: bitterness. Lord have mercy.
I, too, enjoyed the perspectives shared by this author and liked a definition offered by Tomas Halik of prayer being "closing one's eyes and realizing that God is creating the world now". More and more over the years, I came to the conclusion that communion isn't necessarily about "words", nor is it "breaking down walls" in an attempt to get to Him. I stop, I rest, and I wait for "merger" to take place. It takes complete surrender, is accomplished as He directs, and often is thwarted by a fatigued mind on my part. For me it is a matter of commitment, going back to the well again and again, "contact" coming sooner or later and not always with me on bended knees....
Thanks, Hope. Definitely feel a need to check this book out.
Such a GREAT book.
If you go to my blog, there's still a link (tab at top of page) to a series of blog posts my friend Michelle did together as we discussed our way through the book.
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