I woke up with an annoying song going through my head and then I started playing on repeat what I said when it was my turn to share at the birthday meeting yesterday. The chatter in my head was starting to sound like a 45 record set to 78 so I finally got up in hopes of shutting that bit of craziness off. I picked the topic of gratitude for the meeting and then didn't mention it again. Sigh. I bet no one else is up in the middle of the night telling themselves man, that Hope doesn't know how to share worth a shit. All ego of course. I know that. I wish it wouldn't wake me up in the night. If my sponsor was awake she would put it all in perspective in a nanosecond and we'd probably roar with laughter after I said, "ouch." She gave me a card yesterday that brought me to tears. I love that woman.
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I hate when I wake up with those loops running round and round. Oh, and about your sharing, I thought I was the only one who thought I was lame as lame can be when I share. LOL
Forgive for laughing a little Hope, only because it sounds exactly like something I would do! I always have to remember, most people don't listen to me anyways!
Happy sober birthday
Happy sobriety birthday. The repetitive tapes run in my head sometimes too. You're not alone!
I recently had the same thing going on - I had to shout out loud - I MAKE MISTAKES, OK? And then it stopped.
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