Sunday, October 14, 2007

Doing The Bunny Hop

Second night of insomnia. Not sure what's up with that. Yesterday was a good day. I went to my women's meeting and was blessed to hear story after story of redemption. I get to share some of my story next week and I look forward to doing that. I stepped out of this meeting for a while to go to my AA meeting. There were only 4 of us there, all of who know and trust one another. The sharing was good and deep and we laughed, oh we laughed. It is so very good to have a place to go where I can be totally honest about my humanity and not take it all so seriously, you know? What a paradox. I take my recovery very seriously but myself much less so these days. I don't know if I'm ever going to get over feeling like looking in the mirror and saying "Is that really you?"

Dearest one and I came home and went for a walk down our road while a combine went back and forth in the field across from us. At one point I did a little hop in the air, not unlike a rabbit, and dearest one looked at me as if he didn't know who he was married to. I grinned and said, "Oh, I'm just happy." After several years of having to weigh every step against stored energy I am still so thrilled to be able to go for a walk. Walking is our favourite way to spend time together so we mourned a lot the loss of that these past 4 years. I had two days this week when a walk was going to take up too many spoons so to walk last night and have reserves of energy left over was a gift.

7 comments:

truevyne said...

Hope, I love getting to know you through your blog. Thank you for your honesty.

JustMe said...

Amen, amen! I am very happy for you for your bunny hop.

dawna said...

you sound like you're doing really well these days, hope. i am so thankful for that!

Anonymous said...

Wow Hope. Sounds like you're describing glee... let's see..

glee
Pronunciation: \ˈglē\
Function: noun

1 : exultant high-spirited joy : merriment
2 : a part-song for usually male voices


Yes, definitely sounds like # 1... not so much like # 2 though.

I'm very happy for you, Hope. :)
love,
Mich

onionboy said...

A joy to read. Peace and bunny hops be with you.

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Wayne Stratz said...

may you be blessed with a good night of sleep and many more hops of joy.

daisymarie said...

Laughter is such a wonderful thing...and to not take oneself so seriously. What joy!

I love the bunny hop image. Delightfull!!!