Monday, December 15, 2008

Life Giving Choices

Dearest one had a hard time getting one of the vehicles to start this morning. It's -38C with the windchill factored in. Yet, it's colder in other parts of the prairies. Lovely, lovely winter. I'm grateful for a warm house and no need to venture outside today.

I've been in increasing pain for the past few days. Nothing that a needle in each shoulder won't fix. I haven't needed trigger point injections since the end of June and I am grateful for that. I am disappointed to need them again. I honestly thought they were behind me forever. I am grateful though, for an alternative to narcotics. Eternally.

Christmas baking and house cleaning are on the agenda for today. Dearest one and youngest son will be enjoying butter tarts, nanaimo bars, fudge and peppernuts by the week's end. It's all good.

I am grateful for life today.
I'm feeling a little teary and vulnerable this morning.
I'm grateful to be sober.
To be able to pick up the phone and talk to my sponsor.
To be able to sit quietly and let God love me.
To be able to extend that love to others.
To have the ability to make choices, ones that are life giving.
Thanks be to God.

9 comments:

Gary Wood said...

You made me smile. Calling your husband dearest one, wonderful.

Christy said...

I wish I were you today. I just ate a bunch of sweets to calm my nerves.

I had no one to call--who cares about a petty over-eating disorder?

Well, maybe somebody, but I don't even think it's worth it myself.

Maybe I should be glad I didn't start drinking beer this afternoon, as I could?

You are lucky. But you made your luck.

Black Pete said...

Pfeffernusse! Yes! Man, I miss that Mennonite Kuchen!

Christy said...

Thanks, Hope...I got your comment!

annie said...

Stay as warm and cozy as you can, Hope. I'm sorry for the pain.

Duckie23 said...

Could the pain also be from the cold weather?

Hope said...

I wondered about that...if the cold weather was affecting the pain levels.
What are you doing up at this time of day? What am I doing up at this time of day?

Pam said...

I'm sorry you're in pain.
I'm happy to see in action that life can still be very good no matter how we feel.
I'm also happy that you have something that works for you.

Owen said...

Hey Hope. I am sorry to hear about that pain :( Though I am happy to hear you forging ahead regardless.