Wednesday, October 15, 2008

How Sick Do I Want To Be?

A full day of appointments from late morning until late tonight.
I'm grateful that's even a possibility.
With any luck I'll be able to get
to a noon meeting as well, just be there a little late.
My sponsor said last night that was just fine.

I'm dropping off my resume and cover letter today for a job.
It's been over 5 years since I was last in the workforce.
I like comfortable and predictable.
But I know being uncomfortable and
being in unpredictable circumstances won't kill me.
That will be my mantra if I get the job.

Tomorrow I'm off to see Fr. Charlie.
An appointment between appointments.
That last one brought some stuff to light
that I needed to face.
It took me a while to mull it over
and then some more time to get up the courage
to speak to someone about it.
Actually between picking up the phone and
dialing my friend's number I had an internal conversation
where I convinced myself no fessing up was necessary.
Then I asked myself how sick did I want to be?
So I fessed up.
Humility is good for the soul.
I now need to go back and speak to Fr. Charlie about it.
His radar was spot on last time
and I wasn't ready to admit it.
I am now.

6 comments:

Patty said...

Good luck with the job!

Pam said...

exellent!

the Mom said...

Humility is good for you, but why does it have to be so hard? I'm glad you are getting better day by day.

You are always included in my rosary. Hope that knowledge gives you strength. That somewhere out there in Oklahoma is a mom you've never met who's praying for you.

God bless you.

much love,
the Mom

Owen said...

I wish you well in both appointments.

Hope said...

Prayer changes me. Thank you for including me in your rosary. That's humbling in itself.

daisymarie said...

A job. Wow. Praying for you in all this.