I'm not without things to write about.
But, is it worth the energy to write?
My sister tells me my best posts
I tell her it's a 2 to 3 hour
to make it look that way.
If it ever does.
Here is the short version:
Dearest one resigned from his answer to prayer job.
Too much stress.
Too many politics.
Too little time.
He is back working night shifts and
hating every minute
of the long drive home afterwards.
Especially after he nearly tangled with a semi
one morning last week driving home.
He's looking at his options.
I hate change.
Well, change I'm not in control of.
It gets complicated because I often
think I'm in control of all change.
Youngest son broke up with his girlfriend
almost a month ago.
I feel relieved.
I believe that those who
push our buttons
are our greatest teachers.
His girlfriend was one such person to me.
I don't think I learned
what I might have.
But I did learn some.
Fr. Charlie is being transferred
to another parish
many hours away.
I was blissfully unaware, and
absent from church
when this was announced
to our small church community.
Everyone in church ended up in tears,
including Fr. Charlie.
I don't do tears very well in public.
Let me rephrase that.
I don't do tears very well in front of anyone.
The day I last had injections
I also had freezing at the dentist.
It was too much of a good thing.
I ended up in ER the following day.
The pain was wretched.
All is well.
But it didn't feel that way at the time.
Dearest one threatened to call the ambulance.
The thought of the EMS people
trying to make their way
to my bedroom,
through the mess my house is in,
motivated me last week to use all my spoons and then some
cleaning it up.
Well, the parts you can see.
I'm not talking about the closet, or bedroom,
or anything like that.
Living room, kitchen, dining room only.
It's very nice to see clean spaces again.
I just remembered
the parts EMS would have to navigate
are more messy than ever now.
I mean, where do you think all the
My intake assessment interview
happens this week.
I'm more scared than anything
although I do have moments
of overwhelming gratitude
But they pass.
I suspect that
*hating change I'm not in control of;
*believing those who push our buttons
are our greatest teachers;
*not doing tears well in front of anyone;
*experiencing wretched pain
*cleaning up the mess no one seeswill all be addressed
when I'm in rehab.